Keep Moving Forward

This big busy bustling city never seems to stop moving. At times I have been tempted to stand on the side of the road with a sign that says 'where the hell is everybody going?!'  It never ceases to amaze me that, whether it's Friday at 6pm or Tuesday at 4am, the city is rushing, and people are everywhere! Walking, running, driving, on the trains..where in the world could they all be going. Honestly.

I'm really looking forward to getting out of Calgary for a few days next week. I'm heading to Kelowna for the weekend for a quick visit with my dad and sister...it will be a blessing to break free from the rush for a while.

School is going well. It's consuming my life completely these days, when I'm not working at the bar. I have made a few tough decisions in the last few days, some financial cutbacks I was sad to make, and the beginning of what could have been a great relationship that I put to an end. But I felt myself losing focus of what is truly important right now..which is my education, a jumpstart on my career, and most importantly; what lies ahead.

I want to move to California in the next 3-5 years, which is what's keeping me going right now. It's a huge goal to strive for in such a short time as I have a lot to accomplish in order to find employment in a top salon in one of the hairstyling capitals of the world. But I'm driven and pushing forward harder than I even knew I could, and every time I lose focus I just bring myself to the thoughts of LA and my life there someday..and suddenly it all becomes worth it. Every overtime hour I pull at work, every day I suffer through on 3 hours of sleep, every social event I turn down because I need to practice my art, every box of Kraft dinner I eat to save towards the thousands of dollars I will need to permanently move my life to another country. It doesn't seem like that much of a sacrifice in the grand scheme of things.

I can't believe I've only been in school for a month. I've never learned so much so fast, and it blows my mind to think about how much I already know. I take my first real live human client in 7 days.  I've got freelance side work lined up for next month.

Life is finally falling together when only weeks ago I could have sworn it was falling apart.

xo-ac